It has been a very long time since I’ve written a blog. Today is a very special occasion though because it would have been our Sophia’s 11th birthday. For the last ten years since her death she has been an absolute inspiration to me in so many ways. The biggest misunderstanding I see is that people think I don’t want to talk about her. At least for me, just because her body is gone does not mean the relationship is over. I am still Sophia’s mama. I still miss touching and holding her. That is where my heart breaks the most… not being able to see, hold, hear, touch and smell her.
Many of you know I’ve been working on my book for about ten years now and finally it is done, both with words and graphics, and is now being edited. Sophia has been my muse for the my life’s research that is contained in the book. The goal of the book is to reduce human suffering. Pain is a part of the human experience but suffering is not. I want to live as fully as I can, literally FULL OF MYSELF so I can access my own unique spiritual DNA. I want Sophia and my other children to be proud of their mama, like I am so very proud of mine.The book is soooo close to being done but my goal of having it done by today fell short and it broke my heart because I felt like I had failed to honor her.
At my Master Mind group this week I opened up and shared about this birthday and how sad I felt. It helped release some of blocked, heavy energy. That entire day I was present in what I was feeling in each moment. When I noticed a heaviness I created flow points from any end points I encountered.
Later that day I was walking with my beautiful daughter Olivia, who just turned the big ten, and our four doggies. I looked up into the sky and saw something I had never seen, a vertical rainbow! It was absolutely amazing so I started yelling at the people around us to look up. Everyone started looking up and “oohhhing” and “ahhhing”.
Then we noticed another rainbow that was also incredibly unusual because it was in the form of a circle! I had never seen a rainbow do that! I love, love, love rainbows so this was a special treat for me! I started feeling happier and more connected to Soph without the “ickie”, just the flow of love.
As Olivia and I walked up to the driveway of our house I looked up and noticed something in the clouds so amazing that I gasped as I dropped the dog leashes and bag of poop onto the cement. As clear as clear could be, I saw an angel. Usually clouds move and reshape into something else but not this one! This was a full on angel.
I took several photos because I thought people would never believe this so I’m including them here for you to see! Funny thing is when I look back at the rainbow photos I can see wings and an angel in those too! Look at the images yourself. Write below in the comment section what you see. I would really love to hear from you.
I believe it was Sophia reaching out to me! She did something else that knocked our socks off last year too. I know we could be making all this up but our whole lives are made up. We make it all up as we go along!
I just wanted to share this post with you to remind you that the tough times a temporary. GO WITH THE FLOW has never been more important… just not someone else’s flow… your own unique, magnificent flow! My book will come out and when it does it will be at the perfect time for when it needs to! It’s all connected to divine timing.
Great big hugs,
PS It would mean the world to me for you to sing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SOPHIA in whatever way inspires you.
And because in our house we sing Happy Birthday in AT LEAST two languages, here it is in Portuguese…
Parabéns a você,
Nesta data querida.
Muitos anos de vida.
Hoje é dia de festa,
Cantam as nossas almas.
Para a menina Sophiaaaaaa,
Uma salva de palmas.
It’s a magnificent way to send more love into the world!