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MY OPRAH DREAM REALIZED….PART 2!!!! YES!!!!!

Dearest Beautiful ButterflyMoms,

HAPPY 50th BEAUTIFUL DOUGLAS!!!!!!!!! MWAH!!!!!!!!!

First a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my beautiful husband Doug who today turns 50!!!! What a ride we have been on in just 10 years!  WHEW WHO!!! Looking forward to future adventures!!!

Next some housekeeping issues…

BEAUTIFUL Susan Wornick from ABC's CHANNEL 5 in Boston! What a wonderful human being! WOW!

*Just got access to my emails after about 8 weeks. Have over 8,000 emails to go through. If you sent me an email and I did not respond please don’t take it personally, I could only access emails through an iPhone and it was impossible for me to do that with such a high volume of emails. Shifting through them now. They are still trying to recover my hard drive and I would say within two weeks I will have most everything back. (fingers crossed!!!!)

*The www.butterflymoms.com website is up and hobbling along. Still needs some tweaks but there is lots you can check out like the ABC News Report by the lovely Susan Wornick under the “WATCH” section and you can also check out workshops and retreats I’m doing. 😉 Thank you for bearing with me as right now the blogs are not all there and it makes it a bit tricky to read prior blogs (for those who want to really experience how very amazing this journey has been). It will get better. For right now it is what it is. ;)…Gentle reminder to SURRENDER! 😉

As you enter today’s blog I offer a gentle reminder to just BREATHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! AHHHHHHHHHHH! Breathing makes the journey juicier! 😉

I’d like to THANK YOU for coming on this journey with me!!!! Last week over 2,000 of you came to sip on Sophia’s gifts of LOVE to us! I am DEEPLY honored. Each Friday that you SHOW UP here adds YOUR energy to BUTTERFLYMOMS and in turn gives you energy multiplied back to you! If you take a moment to be still you will feel it. How do you know it truly FEEDS your soul? The simple answer is that you know by simply asking “DOES THIS FEEL GOOD? DOES IT FILL ME WITH ENERGY? LIGHTNESS?” If something feels GOOD it is giving you energy. If it feels ICKY it’s taking away energy! By doing things like coming to BUTTERLFLYMOMS changes your whole energy vibration in the world. It makes you lighter when you open yourself up to this kind of SOUL GROWTH!!!

Still have lots going on….I’m feeling pressure at this point because this are shifting so much week to week that I might not include what I need to but that is a WONDERFUL lesson in letting go! (I guess I need a LOT of reminding around this lesson because it keeps coming up as you will see.)

Last week I started the blog out by writing WOW! WOW! WOW!…and this week has been no different. From where I left off last blog I left off with… “We had VIP seating and I sat behind Stedman and Gail for a part of the first show. Cameras were not allowed but I did sneak in my phone and so did a lot of people. After a while everyone was taking photos. It was hard though because the phone does not have zoom. This place WAS MASSIVE! I’m going to have to make this a two part blog because it’s getting too long. There is lots and lots still to talk about!”

So the rest of the night was about movie stars and heart-warming stories from everyday people who have done extraordinary things! Everyone was adding their own energy of GRATITUDE and the LOVE in the United Center just grew and grew and grew!!!! I could feel Sophia around me. It might sound strange to people but just because the person is gone does not mean the relationship is. It feels soooooo wonderful to be able to feel her. It feels like the deepest LOVE I’ve ever ffelt. It’s the type of LOVE that lifts your life standards and increase your heart’s ability to forgive and adore. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh (sigh) 😉

Where's Doug?

One story that sticks out for me is Rosie O’Donnell. She came up to us back stage like a magnet was drawing her to us. Rosie looked as surprise as we were that she was talking to us. It was only when I got home that I got my AHA MOMENT!

The front side of my vision board...One line says, "Fly like a Butterfly. Mingle like an A-lister."Other side of my Vision Board....Hello Rosie!!! 🙂 Let's work together!

I looked at my VISION BOARD and saw that Rosie O’Donnell was on there four times!!!!! I put her photos on there because to me it represented my dream of being a talk show host! You can call it what you will but it is crystal clear what it was to me…the Law of Attraction unfolding before us! SIMPLY AMAZING!

Paying it forward! Teaching my kids at Portuguese School how to create their own Vision Boards!!! They LOVED it!!!

As for the star report, most of you have probably seen the shows as they have aired but for those who did not, we rubbed elbows with Tom Cruise, Beyonce, Usher, Aretha Franklin, Stevie Wonder, Queen Latifah, Michael Jordan, Steadman, Gail, Jamie Fox, Josh Grobin, Maya Angelou, Alicia Keyes, Halle Barry, Jerry Seinfeld, Tom Hanks, Madonna, Dr. Oz, Nate Berkus, Maria Shriver, Dakota Fanning, Will Smith, Rosie O’Donnell, Patti LaBelle, Diane Sawyer, etc. Seriously it was surreal and soooooo amazing! What was even more amazing was that I felt totally at ease around everyone. Sure I did the cuckoo, freak-out dance when I first saw Madonna but once I got into the groove it was totally effortless. I just SOAKED IT ALL IN!!! :)!!

This was after Oprah saw all the videos including mine! YAY!

We hardly slept that night either! We had “dinner” at 3:30am and a few hours later had to take an early morning flight back to Boston. It was AWESOME! (funny sidenote: I used to be a flight attendant and for some reason when I walk down the aisles there is almost always someone who asks me for a drink or what time we land. It does not even matter what I’m wearing. Must be “the walk” 😉 )

Leading up to May 23 there were lots and lots of commercials on ABC for the WCVB- Channel 5 piece that would run right after The Oprah Show. We were on at least once an hour on every show including The View, Ellen DeGeneres, etc.! It was completely surreal! My friend Linda was watching the Spider Man movie late one night and suddenly she sees my face on TV. She said it took her a while for it to soak in. She felt like she was in a TWILIGHT ZONE episode! 😉

Beck y was also in the segment I was in...

Now this whole time (for the last 8 weeks, in fact) I have had no real access to emails so unless you are a friend on FB, I cannot let even you know that I’m going to be on Oprah!!!! It cut my communication WAY down! I felt like a wanted to share my joy with everyone but that I could not. At this time reporters were emailing me and I had no way of knowing it. It was totally about SURRENDER. It is not something I can do easily…It is something I am learning to do because I see the benefit of it…most times 😉

I cannot say even know that I’m completely BACK INTO MY BODY. This is such an AWESOME experience that is still unfolding. Someone called Doug the other day and told him they heard my voice on HOWARD STERN!!! They played my voice from the Oprah Show about Sophia! Now tell the universe does not have a sense of humor!!!! ;)!

Thanks everyone who came for sharing in this very special moment! Soooo sweet!

People asked if they could come over for the taping and if you asked you got invited. A wonderful group showed up from all different parts of my life. It was wonderful to see! During the actual viewing I realized YET ANOTHER MIRACLE had happened. There were about 10 ULTIMATE VIEWERS that were featured on the two shows we sat in on. We taped for about 6 hours and the shows have to less than 2 hours to allow for commercials. They had to CUT OUT A WHOLE LOT! The result is that more than half of the people who went, even one woman who flew all the way from Afghanistan , were completely cut out of the TV portion of the program! They cut the woman before me, the beautiful Tamika, but they INCLUDED ME! I was actually the first person. Sooooooooo amazing! Yet another gift from our beautiful Sophia!

Because of this experience I am filled with a new energy. I know I am also born to be a teacher. I am offering workshops to help YOU get to your goals or even find those goals. They are affordable and fun! I invite you to come play with me and some of the other ButterflyMoms! Simply sign up here… www.butterflymoms.com/workshops.html.

I am deeply grateful and deeply humble by all the LOVE LOVE  LOVE!

Great big hugs,

Maariaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

🙂

PS  Turns out that we had sold more books this month but because my email was down I did not get those orders. Soooooo sorry to those who did not get the books sooner. They are all going out today! We have a total of three books…WHEW WHO!!!! These books are going to….(drum roll)

Anaheim, CA – Yay, first book in Anaheim!!! YAY!!!

Lee’s Summit, MO – Yay, first book in MO!!! YAY!!!

San Bruno, CA – Yay, first book in San Bruno!!! YAY!!!

Here is where the books have gone to ButterflyMoms…

UNITED STATES

California

Anaheim 1

Fullerton 1

Sacramento 1

San Bruno 1

Connecticut

Greenwich 1

Yalesville 1

Kentucky

Louisville 1

Maryland

Chestertown 1

Massachusetts

Ashland 2

Holliston 10

Hudson 4

Medway 3

North Easton 1

Sherborn 1

South Grafton 1

Watertown 1

Worcester 3

Missouri

Lee’s Summit 1

New York

Scarsdale 1

Stony Brook 1

Ohio

Dublin 1

Rhode Island

Newport 1

Vermont

Waitsville (Mad River Valley) 2

AUSTRIA

Wien, Austria 2

IRELAND

Dublin, Ireland 1

ITALY

Rome, Italy 3

JAPAN

Tokyo  1

PORTUGAL

Santa Maria (Azores/Açores)  1

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MY OPRAH DREAM REALIZED…PART 1

Dearest Beautiful ButterflyMoms,

Lots going on….

First, our new website is up so check it out and pass it to your friends… www.butterflymoms.com.

Second, we are in the FRONT PAGE of today’s MetroWest Daily News in a very nicely written article by reporter Kendall Hatch: http://www.metrowestdailynews.com/features/x1078553938/O-what-a-feeling-Holliston-woman-featured-on-Oprah

Third, being interviewed by WCVB (ABC) today at 1:30pm. :)!

Now onto today’s blog….BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW! WOW! WOW! I have just read the first paragraph of my last blog on May 13 just seven days ago. I have lived a whole lifetime in these last seven days! I’m bringing lots and lots of BREATHE REMINDERS to today’s blog because it is surreal in many ways how this has all happened and putting it on words, well, I don’t know if I can turn something so AMAZING into linear thought, quite honestly!!! :)! I’m in a world right now where my whole energy level has shifted. The dream I had for 20 YEARS!!!!, that of being on The Oprah Show, finally came true in the grandest of scales!! I am in a state of awe, shock, gratitude, disbelief, amazement….you get the idea! Every time I think I’ve “identified” a feeling it shifts to something else. I am a wave of emotions!

I also feel like this experience has opened me up into a whole new level of being. If I had to describe it I would describe it as my soul just expanded. My energy feels bigger. It is a magnificent feeling!  Yesterday as I worked the counter of our family’s dry cleaning business, I could feel how I was igniting the souls of the people who walked in. It felt AMAZING! I know that is my life’s calling and whether I do it on a stage or one-on-one it feels like total alignment of my soul when I’m doing this. To see people’s faces and energy dramatically shift in a short time leaves me feeling incredibly grateful and joyous! I sometimes even jump up and down and clap my hands kind of happy!

For those who need an update I will give you the quick rundown.

Last Thursday, May 12 would have been Sophia’s 6th birthday. The Oprah Show had only 3 shows left. Every actor, musician, therapist, author’s PR people were doing anything and everything to get their clients on the show. I used to do PR I know how that goes. I had been trying to get on for 20 years, people so I knew that if it was going to happen I simply needed to completely surrender because it was out of my hands. All I could control was my ENERGY ATTITUDE. I let go again of my expectation and embraced gratitude. I sent a final email from my heart to the producer I had been working with letting him know it was Sophia’s birthday and thanking him for answering my original email, working with me throughout the year and giving me soooo much hope!

Friday, May 13, write my ButterflyMoms blog to the reception of one of the highest number of readers ever. Same day a new producer calls me an interviews me. About five more calls that day. I’m asked if I can fly out to Chicago for an interview or have a crew come here. (I hope for them to fly me out but am open to whatever comes.) They call me back and say someone is flying out to film me, “Are you free at noon?” After a few phone calls I was 😉

Me and the Oprah Show camera crew who came to our house in HollistonWhat a wonderful day!

Saturday, May 14 the producer Alex flew directly from Harpo Studios to Providence with not even enough time to change his clothes. He was interviewed someone in Providence at 8am and came to my house at noon. He brought two cameramen and one sound guy extraordinaire. Of course one of them was Portuguese from São Miguel.  😉 (love how the universe works!) Alex says it might not even air. They have to still approve the content. They film for 2.5 hours and leave. I’m thankful for the whole experience and that my kids get to see what a production team looks like. It is a beautiful sunny day.

You KNOW when things get too serious I have to collaborate fun... 🙂

Sunday, May 15 it’s a rainy day.  Finish an open house on a new listing. Get lots of interest and two offers above asking. Doug finished his open house at the same time so since we had a babysitter we met at Bertucci’s for a quick lunch. Alex calls. They loved film and will use it. Yay!!! And they have two tickets for me if I’d like to come to Chicago for the final taping? It hits me that I’m not only going to be ON the Oprah Winfrey Show but that it’s going to be one of the very last shows!!!! Suddenly Sophia feels very, very, very close to me! I KNOW this is a gift from her! I’m having the same out-of-body experience I had when she died but this time it’s oh-so-joyous!!!! WHAT A GIFT!!!!! One snafu… They cannot pay for the flight because their budget is shot but will pay for hotel and food. It’s been a rough couple of years for us financially but I know that if I’ve come this far nothing is going to stop me so I reached out to my class (I’m in my second year of Energy Medicine School) and asked if they had any frequent flyer miles. To my heartfelt joy, my classmates got together and chipped in to buy us our airplane tickets!!! AMAZING! (Learning to receive is SUCH a huge part of all this.) My friend Karen Knight-Detering sprung into action as one of my many fairy godmothers who appeared. Karen  offered to drive me to airport, take care of my Mia and called our wonderful hairdresser Meredith from Willow Salon for an emergency appointment. Meredith opened up the salon for just me at 6am on a Monday (day they are normally closed) right before she got her root canal! AMAZING! Thanks for my mom for watching my two youngest just days after surgery. Thank you Vicki, Raquel, Heather, Arden, Gregg, Alex, Andy, Alberto, Sandy, Linda, Doug, Nancy, Karen, Meredith, my class at the Rhys Thomas Institute for Energy Medicine and everyone else who had a hand in me going to Chicago!

Mateus and Tia Milu :)! LOVEFEST!!

CUTIE PIE 1 and CUTIE PIE 2 🙂

Monday, May 16 Within 24 hours we were in Chicago and getting debriefed on what to wear and some of the basics. My brother Pedro meets me because he now lives in Chicago. He brings his son Mateus who is a total cutie pie! What a total treat it is to play with him! I hardly sleep that night knowing what’s coming!

Amazing vibration when you have 13,000 people around you who are sooo thankful to be there!

Tuesday, May 17  It’s the big day. Trying to stay in my body. I get up SUPER early. Can’t sleep. Too excited! Spend lots of time answering people’s questions. My email is still sporadic and my computer still not working right so I’m hobbling along technologically speaking. I chant and meditate to calm down. I do Reiki to calm down. The fear/worry wants to come in. When this happens I want to start controlling things. I am observing as if I’m outside my body. I’m shifting and I don’t know what I’m feeling from one moment to the next. We go for a walk. The air feels great. It’s a little past three and we meet downstairs for our limo bus with the other ULTIMATE VIEWERS who will be featured on the show. As we start heading towards the United Center, we start getting more details. There was a lot of secrecy prior to this point.

My VIP Badge which gave me the access to my dreams! PRICELESS!

Danielle one of Oprah's stylists...amazing!

One of The Oprah Show's make-up artists Robert. He is FANTASTIC and phenomenal at what he does! WOW!

The representative tells us that it’s going to be two shows instead of one with over 30 stars and lots of surprises. Still not sinking in. We are told we will be there until around 11….ended up being more like 1am!!! 😉 When we get there we come in through the security entrance that all the stars take. It was AMAZING! Incredible energy. Everyone was EXTREMELY grateful to be there!  A “funny” thing happened where I heard a Madonna song and danced over to see what was going on and there was Madonna standing there practicing her part of the show! I wish I could tell you I acted cool but I did not! That is the first of many stars I would see and mingle with that night! People ask if I met Oprah.

Tamika and Carrie incredible women with heart-opening stories!

One of the many times Oprah walked next to me this time with Jerry Seinfeld and Jaime Foxx. Surreal!!!

Very Grateful to Be Able to Share this AMAZING experience with Doug!

 

 

 

This is not the typical show she does because these two shows were for her. Oprah did not have a microphone during most of the show because she was “receiving” not “giving”. She sat four people away from me and passed by me all night long because they kept moving her (she wore heels and by the end of the night you could tell her feet were “barking” – after 12 hours of dancing and standing in heels mine were too!!!!)

Front Row Seating to Oprah in an Audience of 13,0000!!!

We had VIP seating and I sat behind Stedman and Gail for a part of the first show. Cameras were not allowed but I did sneak in my phone and so did a lot of people. After a while everyone was taking photos. It was hard though because the phone does not have zoom. This place WAS MASSIVE! I’m going to have to make this a two part blog because it’s getting too long. There is lots and lots still to talk about!

Make sure you watch THE OPRAH SHOW, Monday, MAY 23 on ABC! I’m in a video in the first few minutes and you will probably see me again in the audience shots because the camera crews were all over us!

I am deeply grateful and deeply humble by that LOVE!

Great big hugs,

Maariaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

🙂

PS  Sold one book this week to a place we have not sold to before….(drum roll) Welcome Louisville, Kentucky to the house!!!!! WHEW WHO!!!!

Here is where the books have gone to ButterflyMoms…

UNITED STATES

California

Fullerton 1

Sacramento 1

Connecticut

Greenwich 1

Yalesville 1

Kentucky

Louisville 1

Maryland

Chestertown 1

Massachusetts

Ashland 2

Holliston 10

Hudson 4

Medway 3

North Easton 1

Sherborn 1

South Grafton 1

Watertown 1

Worcester 3

New York

Scarsdale 1

Stony Brook 1

Ohio

Dublin 1

Rhode Island

Newport 1

Vermont

Waitsville (Mad River Valley) 2

AUSTRIA

Wien, Austria 2

IRELAND

Dublin, Ireland 1

ITALY

Rome, Italy 3

JAPAN

Tokyo  1

PORTUGAL

Santa Maria (Azores/Açores)  1

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WHO KNEW MY DREAM WOULD WEIGH 308 POUNDS?!

Have Tea With Your Fellow ButterflyMoms EVERY Friday!

Good Morning Beautiful ButterflyMoms,

It feels soooooooo awesome to connect with you again today! When I sit down to write I literally do it as if we were sitting here together having an iced or hot tea (depending on your mood and location ;). It is another way I practice connecting to the universal energy that we all come from. It feels AMAZING, FAMILIAR, NURTURING, JOY-FULL, and even FUN! Thank you for your part in this wonderful formula we call ButterflyMoms!

A GROWING GREETING…

If you have ever tried yoga (and I highly, highly, highly suggest that you do!!!) many teachers begin and end their class with the word “NAMASTE”. It is a Sanskrit word used as a greeting, but one that calls your BEST and HIGHEST good, as well as the BEST and HIGHEST good of the other person! Each time you greet someone you are saying, the God/Goddess/Love energy in me sees the God/Goddess/Love energy in you! “NAMASTE” calls you each back to your core essence, back into your zone! Your zone is not my zone BUT when each of us is in alignment we have true peace. In this space there is only LOVE. TRUE LOVE, not those mushy Hollywood myths that people love to mirror. 😉

TRY THIS…

For the next week either out loud or to yourself when you see someone instead of just saying “HEY” , “HI”, “HOW’S IT GOIN”, WHAT’S SHAKIN’ or HOW’S IT HANGIN’, how about you take a deep breath and say NAMASTE, even if it’s only in your mind. Think of it as a sweet, sweet alignment for your soul….it’s free and fun and is also a deep, magical gift to the others you come across in your day. 😉

Tuesday was my husband Doug’s last chemotherapy appointment for this round. He has an ornery auto-immune disease called vasculitis that has been getting our attention for the last two years. So

Give Your Ickies to the Rocks

while the last round of snow storms hit we were at Mass General in Boston getting his infusion. At the very same time my books were finally delivered. It was 308 pounds of pure DREAM  REALIZATION and its name is called Mom Entrepreneur Extraordinaire! WOW! WOW! WOW! Dream Realization Feels Good y’all!!!!! REAL GOOD!!! 😉 The book did not come in the way I thought it would but I was open to the way it did. The result is that this New Year I got a break from putting down “WRITE A BOOK” as my new year’s resolution!!! 😉 (only took 20 years!!! 😉

For over 20 years I have dreamt about these 308 pounds. Imagined in my mind what it would feel like to finally publish my first book. I pictured what it would be like to hold it, smell it, turn the pages and autograph them for people. In those 20 years I’ve also taken lots and lots of shit and ridicule from those who did not believe in my dream. You may find it surprising that most of those people were not my enemies but actually close family and friends. Many of them love/like me but I was messing with their comfort zone of what was APPROPRIATE DREAMING and what was not. In their minds they were doing for my own good….to keep me safe ;). GENTLE REMINDER TO BREATHE HERE, LOOSEN YOUR SHOULDERS and MOVE YOUR JAW AROUND….AHHHHHHHHH! (Remember from last week’s blog to give your “ickies” to the rocks so that you can clearly see the message for you without all the crap-ola!!!! 😉

(SIDENOTE: Notice that I wrote “taken lots and lots of shit and ridicule from”. What that means to me is that I actually did let it affect me. To say it did not and that I was fully focused is a lie. I let it do the opposite of NAMASTE. I let myself (many, many, many times) fall back into the “I’m not as good as ____________________” (fill in whomever fits), especially if my ______________ (boyfriend/girlfriend/mother/cousin/grandfather/sister/uncle/dad/brother/aunt/teacher-whoever it is for you) says so. One of my favorite Eleanor Roosevelt quotes is “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”  Well, I gave my consent because I did not know that I was enough. I grew up in a VERY Portuguese home/community where acceptance is paramount.  I cannot tell you how many times I heard, “what are the neighbors going to think” At times I thought that I needed their approval in some way to feel whole, some days I still do, it’s a habit that is growing weaker ;).

Our Journey on Earth is about Learning How to FLY!!!!!!

Ahhhhhhh, my ButterflyMoms, we are our own prison guards!!! Really take this in. On “Amazing Home Makeover” (the show on ABC) there was a beautiful young man who was in college when his sister and mother died so instead of having his niece and nephews go into foster homes he quit school to take care of them. Even against huge odds he believes, “THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN STOP YOU IS YOU!” Take it in, really take that in. What does this mean for you?  I invite you to fire your guard or at the very least start giving him/her some well-deserved TIME OFF!!!) He/She has served his/her purpose and now they can also be set free! SET YOURSELF FREE!!!!!!

When you don’t have a lot of support, you have the opportunity to create your own support systems that work for you. That is what the ButterflyMoms community is to me. It is a wonderful support system for those who want to FLY!!!!!! Tap into this support and create other like systems throughout your life that allow your soul to grow and expand. It is fun to explore the possibilities. The more you question your “SHOULDs” the more you will EXPAND your JOY!

Great big honkin’ hugs to YOU!

Mariaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

🙂

ButterflyMoms founder…YAY!

PS  In continuing to follow my soul’s dreams I ask for your help to get me to my goal of selling at least 300 copies of “Entrepreneurial Moms Extraordinaire” this year. So far I have only 11 orders…two from my mom ;)! If you feel inspired buy a book or two. I sign every book and wrap it with lots of love! You never know what magic comes to you when you create magic for others! To order now go to  http://bit.ly/gRxe4U

ANGRY AT GOD!

Thank you ButterflyMoms for your help especialy Helen for reaching out!

Beautiful ButterflyMoms,

First, I want to thank Helen Bannigan for her wonderful guest post yesterday. It is wonderful to have heart friends like her and those who reached out. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for lightening my burden and giving me a renewed sense of hope!

I find myself in a very precarious part of my life’s journey. For the most part, it does not feel very good to be where I am right now.  If I take the fear and the judgment away I can say that I am definitely experiencing a lot of deep “shifts”. There is a river of rapid, unexpected CHANGE currently re-arranging my life… and that usually does not feel very good to us humans, especially when you seem to be following “the” rules, but not getting the promised results.

I’ve been in a phase where something “icky” happens and I dust myself off,  put on a “stiff upper lip and conjure up all the self-help advice I’ve acquired over the years. Then another “Icky” thing happens, then another, then another, almost like “instead of it’s raining men, it’s raining icky.” It gets so bad that you start to think that the universe is pulling a cruel joke on you. It is seems like your whole life is deconstructing without your conscious consent. You think you are at that bottom and then you arrive at a new lower, bottom. Your life seems to be in free-fall mode. You feel scared, disconnected, and angry.

Life sometimes feel overwhelming!

As someone who has been to third world countries and seen how many/most of the people of our planet Earth live, there is a part of me, THE JUDGE, who rides me like a mule. “Look at you! You have running water, heat, a car that works, healthy children, a body that works, etc…SNAP OUT OF IT! “ And I did,  I did “snap out of it again and again but there is a part of us that we bury when we simply “snap out of it” without acknowledging what is going on because it’s not convenient, or it makes others uncomfortable, or because it does not feel good, or_____________ (you fill in your own answer).

I get the sense that many feel this way but being raised the way we have been it is not “proper” for us to feel “icky” for very long or even simply be ANGRY. Well-wishers and loved ones also tell me to think about all that I have and to be thankful for that. It is true that I do have a lot to be thankful for but sometimes we feel what we feel and cutting off those feelings or sugar-coating what is going on in life, well quite honestly, sometimes life just SUCKS!

I remember back to a time when we had someone from Early Intervention coming to the house when we first had Sophia. Wise, white-haired Barbara was a wonderful soul who came to the house once a week to help us cope with Sophia having Downs and to make the most out of her life. She had a conversation with Doug once that helped snap everything into place. Barbara also had a special needs son who was now a man, she just blurted out one day, “Ya, it sucks.” Just saying those words released Doug in a very deep way. To be able to say that it sucks that you are in that situation without all the KUMBAHYAH fanfare feels REFRESHING! It is acknowledging your true feelings, not what you are supposed to feel.

What does it all mean when it's all falling apart.

It is only when we acknowledge that things do ROYALLY SUCK that we can begin to “move past the sucking”!!! Ignoring it just lets the SUCKINESS grow and fester. It may seem to go away but it only gets nastier and when it finally oozes back into your life you will wish you had addressed it MUCH sooner.

I spent my whole life creating a plan and working that plan of how to avoid pain and have the life I wanted. Over the last few years the universe has completely blown up that world. I AM RAW. Right now my life feels like it’s coming at me full speed. I feel like a rag doll getting thrown around. I don’t know where life is leading me but I will continue to be as authentic and present as I know how. Mark your calendars to come back every Friday for the unfolding journey. Feel free to share your comments below. This is how we can all learn and grow our ButterflyMoms souls.

Great big hugs,

Mariaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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PS  My first book “Entrepreneurial Moms Extraordinaire” is scheduled to be shipped at the end of next week. For ButterflyMoms who order it online it is discounted to $19.99 for ButterflyMoms (down from $25). Please order a copy and recommend to your online friends. Click here to buy, and post the link on your Facebook, LinkedIn, Twitter, …. http://bit.ly/gRxe4U.

PPS Yesterday we had our first Stitch n’ Bitch at Doug Sent Me Green Cleaners in the downtown of an idyllic New England town called Holliston, Massachusetts. It was sooooo incredibly cathartic. It was so wonderful that the people who came asked if we could do it again in two weeks instead of a month. If you don’t live close enough to Holliston to come Thursday, Feb 3 from 6-8pm then join your own group. Building community is another way we feed our soul. For more information you can go to their official website…. http://stitchnbitch.org/

Reaching for the STARS with a Broken Heart!!!!!!

BELIEVE!!!!!

Hey Beautiful ButterflyMoms!

First I want to apologize for being M.I.A. for a couple of days. The blog software was acting VERY funky. I wrote an entire blog and when I tried to download photos it would not let me. I tried for hours (yes, I’m stubborn that way) and then the software glitch of the photos “ate” my blog (YUP! That is the technical term for it ;)) Needless to say I was bit bummed, especially because I had no time left to do another one. (These blogs take at least a couple of hours to write each time.) Now onto the real part of the blog…

WOW! I am completely humbled by the outpour of love and support a couple of days ago at the four year anniversary of our Sophia’s death. It was an emotional few days. Each year I never know what “flavor” the day will take. This year I wanted to ride the energy of this time of year and do something I’ve been dreaming of doing since I was a child. It all started when I got an email from a friend saying I should apply to the Oprah contest for having your own talk show. I was busy. I get a lot of emails. I added it to my TO DO PILE where things go to die. 😉 That same day I get another email from another friend about the same thing. Wow! Two in one day! That was cool and I wanted to do it but my screaming kids and work were still pulling me harder than my dream. The universe, forever patient, kept at it. Over the next three days four more people (who don’t even know each other) emailed me the Oprah contest with a chorus of “YOU should do this!” or “This would be perfect for you!” or “I can totally see you do this!” Six people!  How could I resist, I ask you? I decided then to unpack a dream I had kept deep inside of me, cocooning until all the right circumstances would arise. In these moments you want to pinch yourself because there were days when you could not picture your dreams coming true. Since I was a little kid I had dreamed about having my own talk show. I love the camera. I love people. I had no idea how I would do that. You don’t exactly go to talk show university so other things got in the way and my life played out the way it has. I started realizing when I was in Chicago a few weeks ago that many of the careers I had were all to prepare me for this. That thought was a WAVE OF KNOWING that washed over me as I was in the lobby of the Chicago Sheraton. It felt wonderful!

THE TAPING

The whole process/journey together seemed overwhelming so I broke it down into steps. First, I tried to find out how much it cost to get it professionally done. It was WAY too expensive, especially just for a 3 minute video. Plus, I would have been disappointed had I not done it myself. I think creativity is a vital part of this journey.  Our spiritual side is made from ENERGY and CREATING is what energy does. It loves doing it! If you are not doing creative things in your life you are cutting off your “spiritual oxygen”.

BTW, your mini assignment today is do something CREATIVE. You must use items you already own and that are around your office or home. Paint, glue, color, cut, Lego, draw…pick your creative outlet and have at it. If you are having trouble starting just tell yourself you will only do it for 15 minutes and see what happens! Give yourself some extra FUN energy! It’s even more powerful than caffeine!!! J

Second, I had to find and HD camcorder (translation: HELLO WORLD! HERE ARE ALL MY LINES & WRINKLES!!! HOORAY!!!! ;)). I was reminded of the power of ASKING for what we want. Out of the blue three kind souls offered they magic creating machines to me!

One of my number one fans!!! 😉

Thirdly, I requested/begged a designer friend of mine to film at Brick House Realty’s office. Now the cool thing is that I have been on a few television sets, been on TV and done modeling so I understand a bit about what one needs to bring. I had a little MARKETBASKET plastic bag with two simple changes of clothing, two necklaces, mascara, eye liner, lipstick and my Italian red patent leather hoochie mama shoes. I have not worn make-up in a year or more but learned the basics a long time ago! I had forgotten that and it felt good. Since I don’t usually wear make-up when I do people think I got a facelift or something! It’s very funny! J

Next, the contest rules are VERY specific about lighting, sound, etc. We filmed for about two hours. When I reviewed the tape I was disappointed to find that the lighting was not the best and the street sounds were picked up during the filming. We realized we could not film there. We asked a local photographer friend of ours if we could use his photo studio and he agreed. The four hours of film footage we got there (two cameras rolling simultaneously) was awesome as was the sound.

There were many side roads and tribulations in this whole process so far, times when I just thought that maybe quitting was my next direction. I knew I’d regret that so I kept on keeping on, as they say in American folk songs. 😉

This whole process was about asking for what I needed. It was a wonderful series of exercises about going with the flow of what is there and not what I wanted to be there. I realize that part of being happy on this planet is to know WHEN it’s a good time to PUSH ON and NOT ACCEPT what is going on AND WHEN IT’S TIME to GO WITH THE FLOW!

Two nights ago I pulled an all-nighter so I could edit the video. This entire process has been an act of L-O-V-E!!! You are now officially a direct part of making this dream come true because you have been so supportive! Oprah is having a contest for people who want their own talk show. I made a video that just went up two days ago Tuesday night and therefore we are way behind the others who have millions of votes because they started in May!  I worked really hard to create this video and now comes the stage where I need help promoting it. I know you are super busy but I humbly ask for your help in making this miracle happen! Here’s how:

The Opera Winfrey Network (OWN) contest is designed for people to vote multiple times at once (like 101) so please go back & vote as many times as you can every day July 3! REALLY NEED YOUR HELP to continue the momentum of the SNOWBALL WE HAVE CREATED so please:

  1. Vote as many times as you can-at least 101/day would be awesome 😉 (BTW, they only update votes every hour so when you vote the number won’t change to you but it is being counted)
  2. Send friends an email offering them to be a part of this adventure 😉
  3. Post it on your Facebook, Twitter, MySpace, LinkedIn, etc.
  4. Make it a game and involve others. We only have a few days to attract this miracle! :)!

THANKS for helping me live my dream! This is FUN…thanks for being a part of it!!!! Let’s build the momentum of our SNOWBALL but reaching out to others and voting! Our goal is 2 million votes by July 3.

My friend Corinne wrote, “Please read below, view clip, VOTE-VOTE-VOTE… FWD-FWD-FWD to others striving to achieve their goals and PRAY-PRAY-PRAY.”

Here’s the link…. http://myown.oprah.com/audition/index.html?request=video_details&response_id=13674&promo_id=1

If the link doesn’t work go to “oprah.com to” “your own show” and look up “THE MARIA SHOW” by “Maria Salomao-Schmidt”!

Thank you for being part of this MIRACLE!

Great big hugs,

Mariaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

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BELIEVE!!!

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